how i start this? i just want to let speak my heart. My name is Florian, im from Germany. Meantime i am 25 Years old..i saw much in my Life but not enough and i want to see so much more.
In the Last 3 Years i began to see where my life is going, and it was not the way it should be for me. In this time i experience what is
unrequited love. My Job and the Girlfriend i has then...they burned me up, Day to Day i become a more and more a Shadow of myself. I have nothing then work and get home to a Person who didnt love me anymore, but it was difficult, it wasnt that easy to get away from this.
My heart was broken, i get sick so often, at least i began to feel i am nothing, will work in the next 40 Years in a Job that dont makes me happy, i will die alone and nobody will remind me. I am a Person who first think about others then myself, i think that is one reason why it comes so far. I just want to make it for others right.
Then i heard California Gurls on the Radio... something happened to me. The Song makes me happy, i go with the flow, i began to dance to it at my Work...
It was the time Teenage Dream was releasing and the Stations played more and more Katy. I heard sometime before about Katy Perry but it passed me by without special interest.
At this Point this changes, i heard more Songs from Katy and for the first time in my Life, the Music..HER MUSIC gives me new Strength and Power and as i heard Firework a was unleashed.
I wrote applications to get a new Job, i began to jog and went to the Gym to improve my health and to break trough the old pattern. My former Girlfriend didnt unterstand my rising love to Katys Music and she didnt support me in my new sports activities. But i was going trough it.
To jog is my new great Passion, i dress up, get out and with Katy in my ears no Distance can stop me, i run, run, run. I caught myself smiling often when a jog and listen to her, i feel easily, its like i levitate over the ground. To enjoy to Walk, the Environment, the Weather and the Music, this is it.
Teenage Dream : It gaves me the Hope back that anywhere outside is a Person who loves me as i am and accept my little Faults that we all have.
Firework : It shows me that i can reach everything that i want, i am valuable, loveable individual.
Part of Me : It gives me the Strenght to hold trough, to stand the Pain and fight. My love to Katys Music, passion to jog, and the things that make me who i am, that is the Part that no one take a away from me.
Wide Awake : After all the time, it feels like i am waked up, from a bad dream. I let so much behind me and i feel really Wide Awake now.
There are so much other Songs that have a direct meaning for me but it would break the frame.
What is leaving now?
I am Happy.
I feel Healthy.
After a long time i left my Girlfriend.
in 2013 i begin a new Job.
in April i will run the half-marathon and maybe fall 2013 but at the latest 2014 i will make the marathon, every run i make, especially my first half-marathon and marathon i dedicate to you Katy.
I pulled me out the shit by myself, that is fact. But without Katys Music, i never would be able to make this real.
I would like to thank you to be that amazing Person that inspires me every Day again, one without your Music is a wasted Day.
I catch every possiblity to meet you or get to a Concert, but both never comes real because different reasons.
In my Room depends a hand-signed One of the Boys CD in a frame from you that i auctioned on ebay at the Grammy Charity Auctions, i am really proud that i have a little piece of you near by me. I will hold this on Honor for ever.
My big Dream is that someday i could meet you, hug and thank you for everything what do I owe you, but i guess if it comes to this i will get a heartattack or fall in faint *smile*. I will never give up this Dream.
I wish that you find someday that person that really loves you and takes you as you are, so i maybe find this person.
Florian, your Katycat